putting together a desk

I used to put stuff together
I used to be quite handy
when I was a shipping/receiver at a store part of my job was putting together displays
I used to compete with other shipping/receivers at other branches via speaker phone to see who put it together first

somewhere along the way when I had kids and stopped working
I lost my ability to put things together
*shrug*
it got easier to ask DH to do it I guess

even the boy can put together stuff quite easily

when did I get so dependent on others?


anyway the good news is that last night I put together a desk, I've been waiting for Dh to put it together for me, but I decided last night I was not waiting for anyone
I want my desk put up so I can move my computer and have the ability to go online without having to go upstairs and block myself from the family. I'm tired of having to negotiate computer time.

it wasn't so hard

I think I won a little piece of my independence back

maybe I will put together that composter myself?

Ok a friend pointed out that I should blog about Mike Savage

You know I'm fairly new to the world of Autism
I'm fairly new to the whole real world of blogging
I stink at it actually LOL

but I never liked him and I never listen to his show
as long as people listen to the show and advertisers advertise
he will spew his ignorant crap out it's no different than the crap we get day to day
"learn how to parent" stuff like that

life is too short to stress over this
I might send an email or two out
I might have to listen to his show to figure out who to send it too LOL

But really it's not like I a m plugged into the blogging community
nor am I really plugged in to the Autism community
I sit on the outside as I always have been

I've been out here so long I am not sure how to go inside KWIM?

I don't think it is my social responsibility to blog about it

but here ya go

maybe I will learn

what is the secret?

How is it that everyone is organized, and I am not?

I'm trying and trying
I am even keeping a to do list every day, but it just keeps getting longer and longer and it's overwhelming

*sigh*
some days I really miss my December 98 mommy friends
today my heart aches for them. for some reason I can't stop thinking of them and I wish I could just go back and be there again.
*sigh*

so the happy stuff?

a sunflower waiting to open

LOVE it!

I know the moment I look out the window and see it open I will gasp, even though I know it is going to open, and I am pretty sure I know what it will look like I am still all tingly with anticipation!!!!

OPEN up please!

the time to show yourself is NOW :)

I LOVe my new hobby of gardening!
in the past I always gave up because the woodchucks, but now I feel that even if the woodchucks eat everything I can just go and buy new stuff..I found a local place where it cost next to nothing for plants.

even with the Japanese beetles and the slugs it kind of stinks for my poor purple cone flowers, but.... it's ok circle of life right?


OH did I tell you all that the loostrife is not blooming this year

not sure why looks like something is eating it

it is very strange to look out on the marsh and not see the sea of purple flowers that look so beautiful but you know it's bad because there is no place for the red wing black birds to nest. I do see a few purple spots here and there, but mostly it's rust colored dead plants

I should take a picture huh?


off to play with chalk

today's I did list LOL because the to do list is too long!

Today I got up at the crack of dawn to wrestle my kiddo out of bed and get her eating and cleaned and dressed and combed and braided and onto a big scary bus that she ran to when she saw it coming (yes the bus is only scary to me) I played the two year old version of memory and watched Harold and the purple crayon and signed the boy up for VBS next week. Helped him with his report on Harry potter, and helped him wiht hsi letter to hsi new teacher, called the town to find out about the composter they sell, got the girl off the bus, tore the house apart looking for the checkbook because they only take checks, called Dh and found out DH has the checkbook in HIS car called town hall and convinced them to take cash for the composter. Put the kids in the car and drove to the town hall to buy the composter, wrestled with the five year old who hates deep stairways down to the recycling department where she proceeded to grab at the stack of papers the woman had there on the floor she was filing...two year old ran down the hall, while i was chasing her the five year old climbed into someone's office and started spinning in a chair The guy was nice said "ah there is nothing here she can break" ROFL he obviously does not know our Messy LOL


apologized many times, wrestled the heavy composter to the van while directing the 9 year old who was holding the girls' hands got the kids in the car when the nine year old suddenly remembered that he wanted to recycle our old cell phone and he had it in the car could he run in and put it in the box....:( it's 90 degrees out and it's against the law in our town to idle the car, can you imagine the fine you would get if caught idling your car outside the recycling office door? LOL but how can you say no to the kid...so he jumps out of the van to go back in and I move the van to a shady spot and turn off the engine the girls are hungry, the girls are fighting over who is more hungry than the other one LOL thankfully the kid didn't have too much trouble I worry sending him places on his own...I am not good at it!!!! I have anxiety the whole time.

Drove the composter back home to unload it...girls are crying because they thought they were going to a restaurant drive to burger king where the boy wonders out loud if waiting in the drive thru line is just as bad as idling the car...the kid has a point so we park and get out of the car to get food, that is fun NOT! get the food, get in the car and drive to the pediatricians office, because you cannot refill ADHD meds you have to get the prescription and bring it to the pharmacy with a valid drivers license to drop it off (don't need an ID to pick it up) we find out that the car seat laws have changed and The boy no longer needs a booster seat (thanks for putting THAT poster up pediatricians office)

then we went to a store to buy a shower curtain liner, but the little one had a diaper explosion and we have to change her and it is real bad and I used the last of the wipes, so we walk over to eh grocery store to pick up wipes, we found worm poop there and bought it along with some powerade for DH and coffee beans...and some other things that I did not know I needed

75 dollars later we were walking out of the store and see a woman coming out of the hardware store with a little pool "we want a pool" OK I did promise them a pool which I can't find and I see they have them here so we go in, besides I need some eye hook locks with springs on them because messy has been locking the boy in his room, so we are hoping the oens with springs will be too hard for her, but still allow him the use of the locks

we got the locks and the boy found a cleaner that is supposed to be as good as "Bar Keeper's friend" and non toxic earth friendly...he talks me into to trying it...I will believe it when I see it, I am addicted to BKF We didnt buy the pool because I don't want to walk to the car carrying it and the girls the parking lot at thsi store is a lot busier than the one at town hall KWIM?

finally I get to home goods in search of a shower curtain liner. this is where the kids coping points ended "I want a..." and Messy was grabbing things off the shelf the isles are too skinny you can't put the cart in the middle she can reach the breakable stuff
I will say we did not break anything but I am sure the staff there was happy to see us leave
it was really awkward too the kids are screaming and I say to the ladies there "I'm sorry for the screaming kids" usually you get an understanding nod, or a smile, or even a "oh we have kids too" kind of thing, but I got the cold stare from all of them the cashier that rang my stuff up looked down right mean.

we were supposed to meet Dh at the carwash later, it was too early and I couldn't get DH on the phone and I was TIRED! so I went home and sprayed worm poop on my garden! my cell phone has no signal at home and Dh never even thought I would go home so he couldn't get in touch with me, and he came home...it's hard to change plans with this family so against my better judgment we got into two separate cars and went to the BBQ place...the plan is to meet at the car wash and wash both cars while getting everyone soaked in the process...a fun summer family activity Don't worry we only spray each other with the one that is just water LOL but I messed up by going home, so we ended up at the BBQ place where the kids got mac and cheese (I could make this at home for next to nothing) and I got chicken, DH a salad
by the time we finished eating we didn't have time for the carwash so it was dumb that we took both cars but...what can ya say? we got home got the kids to bed and loaded the dishwasher sorted through some paperwork and sorted laundry while watching the Daily show!


now I am off to the 24 hour laundry mat, yes I still have not got sears to come and fix mine...it's not just them I am too busy to be home all one day lately, LOL and I still have to drop off the prescription at the 24 hour drug store

how did people live before the 24 hour places?

Now this whole post seems like a complaint, but in between the hard stuff I realized something

I am darn lucky

my kids are awesome even when they don't seem it

when I was trying to wrestle the attachment on the hose to spray the worm poop messy came up and sat next to me, she looked me right int he eye and said "hi mommy, what's up you seem depressed" LOL

now ok yes she was quoting a movie but still it was darn adorable!
And Moo got all her matches right in memory and how can you be upset with Harold and the purple crayon??? Messy LOVEs school and we got an email and her old teacher had her baby and we got a picture :) how cool is that?

life is good even goign to the 24 hour laundromat is good when you go at night it's quiet with jsut the sound of the machines running once in awhile a car will drive by but it's very peaceful...plus I don't have to hurry it's nice.

yes life is good

tomorrow we are going to try and manage the sprinkler park
obviously it's not in my town sprinklers are not allowed LOL

Da Antsis is on da fwoowah!!!!

I had asked her if what color she was going to color in her rock (wock) that she had drawn


"Da Antsis is on da fwoowah!!!!"

any other person I would be thinking she was going to color the rock the same color as the floor

Not my moo
she is two she talks really good sometimes

and sometimes I can't figure out a word she is saying

this time since I live in this house and know we have an ant problem LOL
I know she was getting distracted by more than one ant walking on the floor :)

isn't she cute?

she colored the rock purple in case you were really interested LOL

Messy is LOVE LOVE LOVing the new school
I am actually SHOCKED she is doing so well
her teachers are shocked she is doing so well
and her home/school specialist is not shocked

she knows Messy is familiar with the building because we would go in there to pick up her brother
she knows that Messy is not seeing anyone from her old school so she is not having issues with the whole "I know you from there you should be there" bit

anyway I'm still not liking the bus

but she loves it and that is all that matters right?

the boy today came out of his cave and saw me cleaning the floor and said "mom can I do that it looks like fun"
and he is cleaning the floor and the walls..yes he is scrubbing the walls

really odd behavior for him but I ain't complaining :)

hope you all are doing well

I am trying to get used to getting up at the crack of dawn LOL

seperation anxiety (((shout out to Deb)))

First I want to thank you all for the advice
Deb my friend it is so good to "see" you I thought I had lost touch with you, I hope you and the girls are doing good!


now on to my post about separation anxiety

today was the first day of the summer special education program ( I hate that name)


who knew after all this time
after looking forward to the back to school
after wishing for the switch back to routine
watching the calendar tick and planning how I will work my time while she is in her summer school

who knew it would be so hard to put her on that big bus
I was surprised to see a real bus and not a van with a "school bus" sign on it
wish I had known I would have prepared her :(
she was the first pick up...I introduced myself to the driver, I silently wished he had an aid there
I strapped her in, once she was in she stopped crying and just stared into space

sorry it really hurt to leave her on that big huge monster bus

Jim from North Reading transportation...you take care of my baby

*cry*

ok yes it was me who had to get them to change the IEP to get her into this program LOL