Jessica started a new thing yesterday that took us by surprise.
She has been doing so good lately everyone has seen improvement. she seems happier, she has back and forth conversations....it doesn't always make sense but it's a start and gives you hope that she may do well. But I think we have put too much into the recent improvements, I think we forget about the word finding disorder. we started expecting too much.
The troubles started when I asked her to put on her shoes, she has a new pair of sandals that have sparkles n them that she loves. She started pacing around the house. Dennis said "Jessica! mom said to put your shoes on!" she groaned and started pacing faster---this should be a signal to us that she is agitated, but we missed it ...usually we note it after "we should have figured she was upset since she was pacing" or "we should have known she needed the bathroom since she was pacing"
Everyone was busy getting ready to leave and Dennis said "Jessica we told you to put your shoes on. She stomped her foot, we have taught her to stamp her foot when she is angry because it was better than punching out! Then she sat down hard into the chair and started growling and hitting herself :( I hope this was a one time thing, I can see her frustration and I can do nothing to give her peace :(
It turns out after much investigating that she didn't want to put her new sandals on because they hurt her feet, but she could not tell us that.
Well the rest of the day went well, we got her her sneakers and we all went out to enjoy the day... But seeing your child trying to hurt herself is quite upsetting!
I will say she had a major meltdown later in the day, and did not hit herself which is a good sign.
I need to learn to be more in tuned with my daughter.
Our Stay-cation is almost over, and we are getting ready to get back in the groove of schools, and schedules, I think I am too distracted.
Hopefully we can get back on track, hopefully we can improve communication, hopefully this transition to 2nd grade will go smoothly.
See I can honestly say that this blog post is full of hope!
